Being Enough with Infertility
| Infertility Awareness Week | A word that I am because of He who created me. This is not taken away from me no matter my flaws, my brokenness or my inadequacies. I am 'enough'.
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Infertility tells you, as a woman, that you do not qualify. You are broken & are incapable of performing the one job a woman is uniquely made to do. Each day I wake up from my alarm or my husband - not a crying baby. Each morning I am reminded of these shortcomings. Infertility tells me every day that there is a missing piece, that I am not the role I long so hard to be - a mother.
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Infertility tells me I am not enough. The Lord overcomes this. He has showed me to use this pain to spread awareness & community during a diagnosis that is all consuming. The Lord overcomes this by putting women in my life who trust me whole-heartedly with their precious babes. When I do not feel enough because I do not qualify as a mother in society terms - my loved ones let me hold their little one's & love them so deeply. They trust me & show me that I am enough.
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My husband, the father of our hopeful family is the greatest proof I need to know that I am in deed enough. The Lord gave me him to show me that my short comings are instead opportunities & my fears are actually fuel. He supports me when tears shedding is just going to be the nights activity & he is right there to encourage me to keep sharing this journey. A very painful & intimate journey. But one we feel so strongly needs to be shared in order to build community.
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Infertility tells me I am not enough, but God put people here to tell & show me otherwise. One day, the loved ones telling me I am enough will be tiny little humans that call me momma.
The devil wants nothing more than for me to fall under the pressures of this so called failure. Instead, I work hard daily to use it for good.